Today I am sharing my feelings and explaining where I am right now… I have been blogging for over two years now, coming close to three, hooray! In these past how many months it has been, I have always wanted to post for myself and you guys, so much so that I would always make sure I got a post up and if I didn’t I would really beat myself up about it. You may have noticed in the past few months I haven’t posted any blogs or any videos to my youtube channel www.youtube.com/bitchinblonde it isn’t that I didn’t want to it is that I have so many other things happening in my life. I feel like there is this huge pressure within the blogging community to always be consistant, up to date and live. For me I wanted to be all these things but then life gets in the way and I am finally saying that’s okay.
One of my 2018 resolutions was not to beat myself up so much when I didn’t finish my to do list, my writing or my university work on the day I wanted to. I would previously beat my self up but now I am saying no and I want others who may feel the way I did to understand that it is completely okay to take a break! Whether that be a day or a week or even a month! I do this for myself but I have realised I am not helping myself when I am forcing myself to produce content. Content which is not always up to my best standard of work in all honesty.
So as of 2018 and most definitely while I am in my last 12 weeks of third year of uni I am going to be absent, I might not being able to get that one Youtube video a month up, those insta pictures or even this blog post for that matter! I want you to know that I wish I could upload 4 blog posts a month, 4 videos a month, Instagram everyday while work and study for my degree as well as have a social life but it isn’t going to happen and sadly my blog has to come after my degree until I graduate so please bare with me.
Remember that even if you don’t have a lot going on but feel like you need to step away from the stress you’re putting yourself under whether that be a blog, job or anything else it is always okay to put yourself first and look after number one. I guess I am trying to apologise for being vacant and explain why I hope this blog post somewhat made sense and I hope you can all bare with me till I finish university in 12 weeks. I promise after this I have some super fun content planned for summer time so I hope you stick round till then.
If you made it to the end of this blog post thank you, I hope it made sense. I may or may not see you next Sunday!